10/27/2009 AT 9:15 PM ET
Patrick Swayze’s widow Lisa Niemi spoke from the heart Tuesday about losing her husband just six weeks ago, telling a women s conference that the loss is like an animal all of its own and the sadness could be felt on a cellular level.
“When the grief takes you, it’s like your body is not your own, Niemi, who was married to the actor for 34 years, said during a roundtable discussion on Grief, Healing and Resilience at the Women’s Conference 2009 in Long Beach, Calif. I’m just going with the flow. I know I have to go through it.”
Speaking for the first time since Swayze’s death, Niemi says she’s relied on a close group of friends to get through some of her darker hours.