06/28/2010 AT 11:00 PM ET
“It’s all a blur, it was surreal,” she says on VH1’s Behind the Music: Jennifer Hudson on Monday night. “It was like I was outside of myself.”
As her very public nightmare unfolded, the Oscar-winning actress says she went into seclusion.
“For almost two weeks straight … [I was] inside one room with just family and friends coming in and out,” she says. “I prayed when I’d get up in the morning and prayed before I laid down at night.”