04/05/2011 AT 6:25 PM ET
In a raw new memoir, All That Is Bitter & Sweet, Ashley Judd is baring all when it comes to being raised as the daughter of country music’s Naomi Judd.
“My childhood was erratic, chaotic, unstable,” she tells PEOPLE in this week’s issue. “I was so the lost child, who just goes away and can be invisible while sitting in the middle of the room.”
“I know that my mom did the best she could as did my dad,” Judd, 42, continues, “but for a variety of reasons, it was just hurtful.”