updated 05/16/2011 AT 10:00 AM ET
•originally published 05/16/2011 AT 11:40 AM ET
His American Idol journey is over – which means hard-rocking singer James Durbin can finally turn his attention to something even more important: his wedding to girlfriend Heidi.
Admitting that he was “blindsided” by his fourth-place elimination on Thursday night, Durbin says he was quickly reassured by Heidi, with whom he has a toddler son, Hunter.
“She said she loves me to death and it’s all that really matters,” says Durbin, 22. “Looking back, I auditioned because we couldn’t afford diapers – and I don’t think have to worry about affording diapers now.”