updated 06/15/2011 AT 4:00 PM ET
•originally published 06/15/2011 AT 4:20 PM ET
Crystal Harris finally feels like herself again.
Hugh Hefner’s runaway bride says the decision to call off Saturday’s nuptials was a big relief.
“For a while, I’d been having second thoughts about everything, so I haven’t really been at peace with myself lately,” Harris, 25, told Ryan Seacrest Wednesday morning on his KIIS-FM radio show. “It was all just happening too fast for me.”