updated 08/15/2012 AT 7:00 PM ET
•originally published 08/16/2012 AT 11:05 AM ET
In her PEOPLE.com blog, Diem Brown, the Real World/Road Rules Challenge contestant recently diagnosed with ovarian cancer for the second time, opens up about her desire for a child and the ups and downs of cancer and fertility procedures.
I feel free. I feel proud. I feel filled with confidence that any daunting task can be accomplished.
These feelings come with returning to work four days after my surgery. I made and updated a list of goals every hour that I was confined to bed-rest and was dead fast to accomplish each physical task on my grid in order to move on from this surgery.
I would not allow myself to succumb to a lengthy recovery. I wanted to move on with my life and get back to work. I had no desire to undergo surgery to remove my last remaining ovary, but ultimately chose to do so at the urging of my loved ones. I am very thankful for their love push.