updated 08/22/2012 AT 3:00 PM ET
•originally published 08/23/2012 AT 11:15 AM ET
In her PEOPLE.com blog, Diem Brown, the Real World/Road Rules Challenge contestant recently diagnosed with ovarian cancer for the second time, opens up about her desire for a child and the ups and downs of cancer and fertility procedures
Taxol with a splash of Carbo, please.
Yeah, soooo, a “chemo cocktail” isn’t as much fun as ordering a drink from your local bartender. Although you might say the hangover can be just as, if not more, rough.
My new favorite pastime is trying my skills as an honorary MD. Oh yeah … in my mind I’m becoming a medical expert in fertility drugs, menopause and of course, cancer. When dealing with any illness, you are so entrenched in your disease that you slowly but surely become your own best medical advisor. I swear, Harvard should grant me some sort of honorary medical degree!
I walk into my doctor’s office and sit down in front of her desk. I glance around at her many diplomas on the wall and stack of research on her desk and realize, “Wow, she’s one busy super-brain lady.” Still, she allows me to bounce my newfound Internet knowledge about various “chemo-cocktails” off of her cranium.