updated 09/28/2012 AT 12:40 PM ET
•originally published 09/28/2012 AT 2:20 PM ET
Opening up for the first time since his marriage collapsed with the revelation that he fathered a child with a housekeeper, Arnold Schwarzenegger acknowledges how badly he hurt wife Maria Shriver and their family.
“I think it was the stupidest thing I’ve done in the whole relationship,” Schwarzenegger, 65, replies. “It was terrible. I inflicted tremendous pain on Maria and unbelievable pain on the kids.”
In Total Recall: My Unbelievably True Life Story, Schwarzenegger writes about the affair with Mildred Baena that produced a son, Joseph, now a teenager, and reveals another affair during his relationship with Shriver. He says Shriver, who filed for divorce in May 2011, has not read the book.
“She knows that it’s about my whole life and that I would not write a book and kind of leave out that part and make people feel like, ‘Well, wait a minute. Are we just getting a book about his success stories and not talk about his failures?’” he says. “I wanted to write a book about me.”
The full interview airs Sunday at 7:00 p.m. on CBS.