updated 08/06/2013 AT 3:00 PM ET
•originally published 08/07/2013 AT 8:20 AM ET
In one of the most surprising moments in Bachelor history, standout suitor Brooks Forester left Desiree Hartsock blindsided when he said goodbye just days before the Bachelorette’s final rose ceremony.
“I realized that when I was away from Des, I wasn’t having these moments of anguish,” he tells PEOPLE. “That was a big indicator to me that my feelings weren’t there.”
He says: “I wanted so badly for [the relationship] to work out, and it was so close I could almost touch it. But I needed to walk away. She deserved to be in love with someone who was equally in love with her.”
Buzz abounded that the handsome former model would return, but, for his part, Forester says, “I made the right decision.”
He adds, “It was hard and there were things I missed about Desiree right away. But I knew long term that it was right.”
After their reunion at Monday’s After the Final Rose taping, Forester gushed about the happy and newly betrothed couple. “During filming, I could see the way Des looked at Chris,” he says. “Des came with the objective of finding love and so did Chris and they found that. I tip my hat to them.”