updated 08/08/2013 AT 4:15 PM ET
•originally published 08/08/2013 AT 10:40 AM ET
After successfully battling ovarian cancer for the second time and sharing her journey on PEOPLE.com, Diem Brown is back to blogging. This time around, she will not only share updates on her own life, but about competing on her new show, MTV’s The Challenge: Rivals II.
I am not a middle-of-the-road type of person. Everyone who truly knows me, knows where I stand on almost every issue and subject. Growing up in a family of six, I learned early on if you don’t speak up and have a stance on something, you won’t have a voice in anything.
The strength of my voice has varied throughout my run on The Challenge: Rivals II. However, I learned that if you don’t play the game, the game will play you.
It may be a fault of mine, but I am a pretty swift decision-maker. I weigh my options, feelings, situations then I go full throttle in whatever direction I feel most passionate about and that’s it, there’s no going back. I’d rather people know who I am and who my alliances are with, than pretend those allegiances don’t exist. I have a hard time trusting people who are wishy-washy, especially when it comes to these Challenge games, so I have made it a point to not be a wishy-washy type person.
In Wednesday’s episode I was shocked because I had let my whole room (Emily, Paula, and Camila) know who I was voting for. I also confided in Jordan, Johnny, and Wes. I knew Aneesa had told Ty and Leroy that we were voting for them, so I felt that we were both being on the up and up and everyone knew where we both stood with our vote.
The only reason Leroy and Ty were the team we wanted to vote for was because once they stopped doing “throw away” votes, Aneesa and I would be the team they would vote in first. This was stated by Ty at the group dinner table as fact, so I wasn’t being paranoid.
Ty and Leroy wouldn’t vote for Nany and Jonna or Cooke and Cara Maria because Nany and Cooke were Leroy’s The Real World: Las Vegas cast mates, and he considers them sisters.