updated 08/14/2013 AT 4:45 PM ET
•originally published 08/15/2013 AT 4:45 PM ET
After successfully battling ovarian cancer for the second time and sharing her journey on PEOPLE.com, Diem Brown is back to blogging. This time around, she will not only share updates on her own life, but also about competing on her new show, MTV’s The Challenge: Rivals II.
Wednesday’s episode of Rivals 2 on MTV was a pot-stirring challenge like I have never seen before. The trivia game held all the elements to make people turn quicker than a cut apple.
I found it hilarious that one question got everyone’s blood to boil. Not “Who’s the trashiest in the house?” Nope, that question was laughed off … but answering “Who’s the fakest in the house?” had people going crazy!
Finding What’s Real
“You’re fake.” That seems like a simple put-down, but for some reason, we all hate when those two words are used to define us. Personally, I think that’s the most overused insult. Whenever someone can t pinpoint a person s personality I feel the “you’re fake” card gets used.
People who don’t really know me have said that I’m too happy and too sweet and that it can’t be real. I have even had people who don’t know my background say, “Your smile shows me you have never gone through any hardships in your life; you are just naïve to the world.”
That one always got to me … I think to the sudden passing of my mom or having ovarian cancer – twice. Yep, I guess you can say I’ve had a charmed life, huh?!
What’s funny about that is I believe I have been exceptionally lucky and, in reality, I do feel like I’ve had a charmed life because of how my family has come together through every roadblock that’s been put in our way.
My mom’s passing was and is the most traumatic event in my life to date because losing a parent is one of the hardest things to get through emotionally. That’s why when I heard that lil Jasmine’s dad had passed away less than a month before the show started taping, I reached out to her and tried to offer some words that helped me get through it.
Albert Einstein said energy cannot be created or destroyed. It can only be changed from one form to another. So when someone passes, their energy will still be here with you.
I’m a very faithful person, but I wasn’t planning on going to heaven anytime soon to be with my mom, so that quote gave me so much comfort knowing that, for a fact, my mom was still here with me.