updated 11/04/2013 AT 2:00 PM ET
•originally published 11/04/2013 AT 5:00 PM ET
Nicole "Snooki" Polizzi is a mom, author, entrepreneur and star of MTV’s Jersey Shore and Snooki & JWoww. She’s blogging for PEOPLE.com as she competes on season 17 of Dancing with the Stars with new pro Sasha Farber.
Hello dancers! This post is so bittersweet to me. As I type this on my iPhone, I’m currently sitting in a massage chair getting a pedicure. FINALLY! They told us as dancers we shouldn’t get our toes done so that our feet are hard and strong.
This is my first Monday not being a part of DWTS and I have a mix of emotions. I miss everyone so much. I feel like throughout the whole experience we had all became a dysfunctional family, and we all had no idea what the hell we got ourselves into.
I was so upset to be eliminated because the experience was beyond anything I could have imagined and I loved being a part of a competition that tests your skills and character as a person. I’ve become so close with everyone on the show from the cast, to the pros, makeup and hair people and even the producers and stage crew.
I want to say thank you to everyone who voted for and supported Sasha and me! He is like my big brother and we will seriously keep in touch and be friends forever. He’s already a guest on my wedding list so he has no choice but to be in my life.