updated 11/15/2013 AT 11:05 AM ET
•originally published 11/15/2013 AT 2:00 PM ET
Demi Lovato isn’t ready to jump back into an acting career.
“It is still hard being in front of the camera when you have suffered from eating disorders, and I still don’t watch my episodes. It is hard,” Lovato, 21, told reporters at Thursday’s show.
“I think ultimately my main thing is singing,” she said. “Maybe movies once in a while, if the right role comes along.”
Lovato has a new book out called Staying Strong: 365 Days a Year, in which she came to terms with her struggles. “This book helps me continue to help me love myself, and it changes my self esteem and my thought process,” she said. “I just feel a lot happier. I feel great.”
She is blunt when talking about what treatment did for her. “The harsh reality is that I wouldn’t be alive,” she said. “I wouldn’t have a book or be a judge. I wouldn’t be alive. At one point nobody thought I was going to make it. But here I am, standing here today as a judge. I am here today breathing and have a heartbeat, and that is what I am thankful for.”
The book, of course, represents a crucial step in her recovery – from needing hope and inspiration to now providing it to others.